Pure Panic

That feeling when your heart is beating faster than you can count, your lungs are expanding and collapsing all in the same instant.  Your scared, your worried, your anxious, your stressed, your overwhelmed, and you feel like something is about to happen. Something is happening, the worst is happening right inside your head.  Your brain... Continue Reading →

Spring in Me

Spring is coming. I can feel it’s seed taking root. I can’t wait to see what comes. It is happening even within me.

Running Away

There is a part of us all that has the instinct to either fight or flight when we go through any hard difficult situation. In the moment, we make the unconscious or even conscious decision to fight or flight. To stay and deal with whatever is difficult, or to run away. I am starting to... Continue Reading →

I want Proof

I want proof. I hear about God’s love, I’ve heard about grace, I’ve been told I’ve been adopted, and I have listened to the voices saying they are with me and won’t leave my side. BUT, I want proof. I want more. I don’t believe it. It doesn’t make sense. My brain can’t comprehend this... Continue Reading →

No Longer Defined By My Mistakes

The other day I wrote with vulnerability the reality I am facing with missing my best friend, my Father. A Father whose suicidal death I have been ashamed of, and in doing so wasn’t honoring or celebrating the life he had. In a sense, I grew up defining my Dad from the worst part of... Continue Reading →

Grace Delivered

There's a package on my doorstep with 'Grace' written on the top of it. I'm trying to figure out if I should open it. Did I do something to get it? Do I deserve this special reward? But If I think I deserve it, I might not fully understand it. If I think I need... Continue Reading →

Damaged Goods

There’s a green sticker on me, do you have one too? You know those green stickers that when you walk into the store any of the objects that have been nicked, dented, scratched or cracked is determined as “damaged goods”. These are the objects in the store they just want to get rid of because they... Continue Reading →

Collection Calls that Won’t Go Away

Ring…Ring…Ring. You look at your phone. Then keep letting it ring…ring…ring. You don’t recognize that number but you know it isn’t good news. It is the reminder of a medical or unpaid bill that you aren’t in a position to pay when you hear the phone ring. You ignore the call not ready to deal... Continue Reading →

Sanitation Grade for your Life

What is one of the first things you do when you walk into a new restaurant? You probably either first look at the menu to see if it is worth sitting down to get a table, or you check the sanitation grade that should be hanging somewhere close to the entrance. The sanitation grade is... Continue Reading →

I’m Hearing Voices, Are you?

Have you ever seen a movie where someone is hearing voices. Voices beyond what everyone else can hear. Today’s television shows and movies tend to categorize people that are hearing voices to either be labeled the “crazy” person in the show, the scary villain doing what the voices say, or the voices are labeled as... Continue Reading →

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